My stepdad is an alcoholic/drinker

I don't like to say that I hate anything but I really hate drinkers/alcoholics. It has to do with past experiences.

My dad was an alcoholic but he drank at home and was a little physical.

My stepdad still is an alcoholic and drinks in bars.

I don't think that I'd mind it much except for the fact that he goes to the bar 4 days of the week because he's on pool teams. Since he's on these pool teams, he goes to bars to play and since he's in a bar he's got to drink. More likely then not, he will stay out until after midnight on pool nights.

It has come down to me having to drive my mother out there so that she can drive him back home.

What really gets to me is the inconsideration that he has for my mother. She tries to get him to come home and he wants to stay out longer. Then when they get home she has to fix him something to eat, put it on a tray and bring it up to him in their bed. Then she has to take a shower and bring the tray back downstairs when he's done. This takes maybe an hour and then she is hopefully able to go to bed (where she has to deal with my stepdad on the computer, lights on, and the TV cranked up so load that you can hear it downstairs) so that she can get up around 5:30 in the morning and go to work.

Another thing that gets me is the fact that he can't remember half of the stuff that he does. He also gets people angry with him and he in turn gets angry at people. And he keeps drinking. . . .

I also had an incident when he was drunk that made me uncomfortable (me in a long skirt, driving him home, his hand being where it shouldn't be. . ).

Tonight he got drunk again but mom was away with grandma and I had to go get him with my 15 year old brother. He wanted to stay and play pool and was starting stuff with some Spanish speaking people. We ended up going to 2 different places to eat because he didn't like the food at the one place. and again, the next morning he can't remember what happened.

I don't like what alcohol does to people and I plan to stay away from it. I might also have to say that the man of my dreams will have to not be a drinker/alcoholic, not a smoker and has to love cats and dogs.

What do you think of alcoholics/drinkers? What does your man of your dreams have to not do or do?

-Jessica

Bitten By Books Kindle contest

Desiree Holt is running a contest for a chance to win a Kindle or goodie bag over at bitten by books. http://bittenbybooks.com/?p=34882
contest ends 1/17. I'm supposed to put in the picture shown but I still haven't figured it out.

Good Luck everyone

Win a Nook Color

http://thebookbinge.com/2010/12/merry-christmaswin-nookcolor.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+thebookbinge%2FGXHC+%28Book+Binge%29

Contest goes until January 5th.

Good Luck everyone!

-Jessica

Bitten By Books Contest ending 12/20

http://bittenbybooks.com/?p=34315 This book looks very awesome. I love the cover. The contest is to enter for a $100 Amazon Gift Card. I tried to add the cover but couldn't seem to get it to add. So here's the link.http://www.bookstrand.com/secret-cravings Good luck everyone!

-Jessica

Bitten By Books Contest ending 12/13

One contest to win a book and a Cinderella slipper ornament http://bittenbybooks.com/?p=34031

S. L Wright contest on Bitten by Books

I'm inviting everyone to try and win a Kindle 3G by heading over to this website: http://bittenbybooks.com/?p=33965 I can't seem to figure out how to post the picture that they show but I'm entering it and trying to inform everyone so that they can try to win it. Here's the shortcut that I copied from the cover. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0451463676?ie=UTF8&tag=bittenbybooks-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=0451463676

Good Luck everyone and happy holidays!

-Jessica

Realization and questions

The night before last I came to a realization. To share this realization I'm going to have to talk a little bit more about my past.

So I graduated with my Bachelors degree in May and since then I've gained all my weight back. I seem to have completely thrown out all of my hard work. I don't exercise, I am not eating right and I've actually gotten to the point of not even eating meals. I'm eating chocolate and candy all the time.

And just out of the blue I came to the realization that I'm not respecting my body and that in turn has brought me to realize that in not respecting my body I have no respect for myself. Me and my body. We are one and I'm totally abusing my body by not exercising or eating healthy.

I then tortured my coworker (Sorry Adam!) with talking to him about it. Mind you, I am a female, I started out on one subject and then jumped around. And I was talking to a male. . I guess it wasn't such a good idea but Adam was awesome and listened. And provided support. For that I thank you Adam.

From our conversation and my realization, I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to start respecting my body and myself again. I'm going to work through a lot and I'm going to hopefully post on here instead of torturing my coworkers.

The only real question that I've been asking myself is, where do I start? Should I start with my body or with myself?

Today I started with my body. I've had oatmeal for breakfast and an orange for a snack. I am now going to have lunch which will consist of a salad with leftover turkey. I'm going to take small steps and hopefully work my way through this.

Thanks for reading/listening to this. I'm planning on posting more on here and hope to have more support from friends.

Now, LUNCH!

-Jessica